yes, i've been a bad blogger. no, it's not completely my fault.

i know, i know. i say this all the time. i say constantly that i want to blog more, i'm going to blog more. i promise that i will blog more. i fail to keep the many promises made. it's not completely my fault.
right now, i am in this crazy thing called highschool. and, quite frankly, it sucks. i have no life. literally. my life right now consists of school, work, and rarely seeing the boy i adore.
i am creatively deprived. it is killing me. i can't stand this. i always make plans to paint when i have free time. but, by the time i get that free time, all i want to do is relax and talk to Jacob or get on the computer.
i am in some fairly icky moods right now. all due to the fact that i haven't been creative in months. i have so many plans. plans that are impossible right now.
i long to take a day and paint all of the wonderful ideas trapped in my mind. i long to explore cherry street and go window shopping. i long to spend a day downtown taking pictures of the gorgeous architecture. i long to make clothing (even tho ive never done so). i long to make beautiful things to decorate my room. i long for a creative time to visit me sometime soon.
i will try to blog more. if i find the time. but, at the moment, my days consist of school, homework, relaxing a short amount of time, sleep. and then repeat again. it's like lather, rinse, and repeat.
i just cannot stand this. i just cant.
love, abs.