this is dedicated to the one i love

today was the boy and mine's six month anniversary. (yeah, i know... not that long, but it is truely a milestone for teenagers) he came over after he got out of school and we just hung out. due to the fact that it is our six month, i decided to do a little 10 things i love about Jacob Daniel Howe post. with that being said.........

1. your willingness to act like a complete nerd with me (as shown above.... )

2. the crazy voicemails you leave me when you have nothing better to do

3. your alter ego as a dinosaur named reptar

4. how one look from you can make me laugh sooo hard

5. your love of old trucks and cars

6. your long, flowing, golden locks

7. your strength that is always there whenever i need it the most

8. the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me close to you as if you never want to let go.

9. the way you adore your dogs, and i honestly wish that i could be a better owner because of you.

10. the way you love me even though you know all of my faults, weakness, and negatives.

Jacob, you are my best friend, and i have loved these past six months with you. there are not words to describe what you mean to me, yet i will make failed attempts to try and describe it.

i love you baby, happy six month.

yes, i've been a bad blogger. no, it's not completely my fault.

i know, i know. i say this all the time. i say constantly that i want to blog more, i'm going to blog more. i promise that i will blog more. i fail to keep the many promises made. it's not completely my fault.
right now, i am in this crazy thing called highschool. and, quite frankly, it sucks. i have no life. literally. my life right now consists of school, work, and rarely seeing the boy i adore.
i am creatively deprived. it is killing me. i can't stand this. i always make plans to paint when i have free time. but, by the time i get that free time, all i want to do is relax and talk to Jacob or get on the computer.
i am in some fairly icky moods right now. all due to the fact that i haven't been creative in months. i have so many plans. plans that are impossible right now.
i long to take a day and paint all of the wonderful ideas trapped in my mind. i long to explore cherry street and go window shopping. i long to spend a day downtown taking pictures of the gorgeous architecture. i long to make clothing (even tho ive never done so). i long to make beautiful things to decorate my room. i long for a creative time to visit me sometime soon.
i will try to blog more. if i find the time. but, at the moment, my days consist of school, homework, relaxing a short amount of time, sleep. and then repeat again. it's like lather, rinse, and repeat.
i just cannot stand this. i just cant.
love, abs.